Ok, holy shit I feel really bad about this but I am really in deep crap and super need money.
TW FOR DRUG ABUSE, ABUSE, ALL SORTS OF TOXIC SHIT
So to start off, since I was around 13 my mother and stepfather got way back into drugs like they had been when I was really little. My mother dealt in prescription drugs and meth, but mostly prescs. She had a lot of chronic illnesses so it was super easy for her to get narcotics by doctor shopping, so she did that. Only issue was the whole “we do piss tests to make sure you’re actually taking the drug and only the drug” thing, so what she did instead was drug me and have me take them. Besides this she stole money from me, emotionally abused me and manipulated me and all that. it left me really fucked up when I had to leave to live with my bio dad. so much to the point where I can’t take most drugs without having averse reactions and I’m scared to actually get close to people emotionally
This is just the beginning. I moved to Georgia about a year and a half ago into my aunt (who will be referred to as aunt-A)’s house. that was good for a bit, but my biodad has severe anger issues and within a few months he had put his hands around my throat. he also often got upset and yelled at me for my anxiety attacks and random pulses of depression that overtook my ability to even bother to get out of bed. He eventually moved out because his job has him travel often, and I was left here with my aunt-A.
I have never been in such a toxic environment in my life. The gas lighting and condescension on its own was bad, but then she essentially had me running her amazon store for no pay. And god forbid I fuck literally anything up, lest I have her essentially call me a failure and tear me down despite how hard I was trying to just gain her approval. She set me up to look at her as a mother figure and then tore me down repeatedly to make herself feel better. She also took it upon herself to gossip about me to everyone in the family and out me so now no one will actually talk to me because I’m in Georgia and everyone here is queerphobic and disgusting.
So to cut to the chase, Aunt-A is kicking me out because shes sick of me telling people about how she treats me. I’m now having to move in with my occasionally abusive biodad, and give up my cat who I love more than I love myself. I need some way to get out. I’m jobless, carless and have no way of getting anywhere or paying to take care of myself. I’m outted as queer to my homophobic family so they’re essentially of no help and I have an assortment of medical issues and mental ailments I have to live with on top of the stress of being booted from the place I’ve been for a year and really need to save up to get out of this hell.
There are donate buttons on my personal blog and fyms (hi its the head admin ; w ;) so if you have any spare money even just a couple of dollars anything is appreciated! if you want I could doodle you stuff too in return!! I’m super desperate and scared here, so I’m glad for any support. thank you for your time!!!